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Depression & meds: A reflection via Peacebang and Chalice Chick

11.27.07 | 11 Comments

(Peacebang’s post here. Chalice Chick’s response here.)

Here’s what I hear, out and about. I hear some folks saying that going on meds is a great experience, some folks bitching about feeling dulled and deadened by their meds, and other folks asking desperately why they can’t find the right meds.

More often than not, meds change people. That’s why people take them. They’re hoping to be changed.

We experience any significant change as a loss, so taking meds, even good meds, leads to a loss. It can be a liberating loss or a devastating loss, but taking effective meds is going to take something from you. You may end up happy about that. You’ll need to talk it through either way.

Back when I read thick books, Julia Kristeva wondered if taking meds would replace the hard work of spinning your own life story. She’s a recovering Freudian, so she’s interested in you spending all your time and energy tying off every loose end in your subconscious instead of purchasing the “short cut” of meds. Sadly, there aren’t any meds yet to cure Freudianism. I guess she’ll have to find a therapy-only solution.

One thing good meds do is give you enough of a reprieve to quit living whatever shitty story you were telling yourself while you were depressed. For some folks that’s enough, and they can quit the meds once they write a better story to live out. If your biology isn’t so docile, you’ll need the meds no matter how great a story you get. Them’s the breaks.

Don’t admire people who get over clinical depression without meds any more than you admire people who get over pneumonia without antibiotics. It’s impressive, granted, but not admirable. Somebody always wins the biology lottery.

There were things about your pre-meds life that weren’t shitty. Some of them were pretty cool, and a few of those cool things might disappear when you take the meds. But if your meds work, you’re a better person when you’re on your meds. You’ll have to get over losing some of the old coolnesses and have to get used to some new coolnesses. Them’s the breaks.

Take your meds. Your friends and family thank you.

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