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Help me to be a noble failure—while I run this race

06.21.07 | 13 Comments

This is my first GA. And so my first banner parade and opening shindig. And that’s all the academic throat clearing you get on this one. (This one’s long, so I broke into five bite-sized pieces.)

1. Ending institutional evil as we know it

The focus of the evening was three moments in UU social justice history: one part Elizabeth Cady Stanton, one part Civil Rights, and one part disability. Three moments where we took a stand and made it count.

The evening’s rhetoric took on an interesting dynamic. One moment we were being regaled with our incredible wonderfulness, our beacon-ness, if you will. The next we were bereft at our complete incompetence at making anything happen ever. Rinse and repeat.

“We so good!! Oh, but we’re so bad at being good! But, look, we’re so good!! Oh, but we’re so bad at being good!!”

Of course, when your goal is to end institutional evil as we know it, you’ve kinda set yourself up for that.

I was a little taken aback when the word flashed across the powerpoint screen, saying that we had committed ourselves to nothing less than ending racism. Wow.

It’s not every group of folks that will commit itself to ending institutional evil as we know it. Maybe most other folks limit themselves to more cautious ambitions. Or more achievable ones.

2. High hopes

Let me ask this question: Do we really expect we will end systemic evil as we know it? Because I don’t think we really do.

Do we expect we’ll raise awareness? Yes. Do we expect we’ll make changes in our own lives and in our congregations? Certainly. Do we expect we’ll make some important impacts in the wider world? Of course. But we will not end systemic evil, and we don’t really even expect to.

So why would we say such a thing? My first instinct was to label it as moral masturbation, something a room of religious liberals voted up to feel good about themselves, but I don’t think that’s it.

Let’s go back to the original “I’m so good! I’m so bad!” dynamic. If that’s a dynamic a group of folks want to set up for themselves, there are ways to make that happen. What you do is set yourself up with a noble, unattainable goal. And then fail at it.

Have we made important, significant progress in ending institutional and systemic evil as we know it, as far as that’s within our means? I think it’s fair to say that we have. I think it’s probably even fair to say that we’ve outdone other religious movements.

I don’t hear us brag about that much. Or at least we don’t brag about it and leave it at that. There’s the brag, but then the excoriation. The excoriation half of that feels much bigger to me.

3. Is that our story?

Who chooses to tell themselves the story that they should fail nobly? It is as though we wish we sing from a hymnal full of songs about our inability to follow through.

But that’s the sort of thing that happens when you say you’ll do no less than end institutional evil. You fail at that every time. That’s not Good News. That’s not a story people line up to be a part of. At least not people interested in being a part of Good News.

4. A couplet of anecdotes, wherein Chutney gets in on the excoriation

Anecdote the first: One of the small brags of the evening was how worship leaders were all asked to use the phrase, “I invite you to to rise in body or spirit.” Immediately after that we started to sing, “Guide my feet while I run this race.” Oops. Can we add “in body or spirit” to the lyrics?

Anecdote the second: At a workshop today, the leader asked folks to give feedback when they agreed with what a commenter said. She said she was going to ask for a show of hands, but she didn’t want to disinclude people with various disabilities. So she asked people to hum their affirmation instead. Oops again.

If we hadn’t have bragged about our commitment to ending ableism, I might have seen those two moments as small steps of progress and not as noble failures.

(Herein ends the rant. Don’t kill me at the bloggers’ dinner. Hafidha says I’m “surprisingly sweet and innocent,” so I’m going to expect you to go with that.)

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